Saturday, March 26, 2016

Hope in the Wake of Failure



“Hope” is big in Christianity.  When we talk about Easter it’s hard to avoid the message of hope.  Of course, we often connect that message with the hope we have in what seems to be the most hopeless of situations:  Death.  I usually tried to acknowledge that even in my small congregation there were those who had lost someone in the year following the previous Easter.  Easter can be a time of hope for those people.  It contains a message of comfort for all believers.  But hope has other facets as well.  There is the hope that tomorrow will be better than today.  And there is the hope for a better you.  There is hope in the wake of failure.

John 21:1-19
Someone has said that the Gospel of John begins with Jesus as a guest at a wedding reception and ends with him hosting a picnic by the lakeshore. 
This story takes us back to the night before the crucifixion.  Something happened that night which is recalled in each of the gospels:  the prediction of Peter’s denial.
It appears to have taken place following the supper and before Jesus moved on to the Garden of Gethsemene.  On that last night, Jesus began speaking in veiled terms of the crucifixion.  He said he was going where the disciples could not come:
   JN 13:36 Simon Peter asked him, "Lord, where are you going?"
    Jesus replied, "Where I am going, you cannot follow now, but you will follow later."

    JN 13:37 Peter asked, "Lord, why can't I follow you now? I will lay down my life for you."

    JN 13:38 Then Jesus answered, "Will you really lay down your life for me? I tell you the truth, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times!

That was a bold declaration of commitment.  Peter pledged to stand by Jesus no matter what.  In fact, some might even say that Jesus’ words were a downer in the face of such a declaration of loyalty.  In fact, Mark tells us that Peter protested what Jesus had to say.  “’No,’ Peter insisted, ‘Not even if I have to die with you!  I will never deny you!’”  At this point the other disciples spoke up and made the same pledge; this after Peter had implied that he would remain devoted even if all the others—his friends he had been traveling with for three years—should decide to abandon Jesus.
Surely we wouldn’t condemn him for having excessive pride, he was just resolute.
Well, what happened?  Was Jesus right or did Peter surprise him by standing firm?
To know the answer we have to look ahead a few hours.  Jesus had shared some of his deepest teachings about the Holy Spirit and about eternity.  He had been arrested and taken off for a quick trial before the religious and political authorities.
Where was Peter?  John tells us because he was there.  With one eye on Jesus and one on Peter, John watched the drama unfold.
A little slave girls asked Peter if he was one of Jesus’ disciples.  Peter said, “I’m not.”             While Jesus was being interrogated, Peter joined some of the other servants and soldiers warming themselves next to a fire they had built in the courtyard.  Someone—Luke says it was the servant girl again—asked, “Are you sure you aren’t one of his disciples?”  Again, Peter said, “Nope, I’m not.”
Just then, another servant looked closer at Peter and said, “Just a minute, I know you.  You were in the garden with him, weren’t you?”  This time, Peter used some strong language to say, “Get this straight, I am not one of his disciples.”  At this point, John adds, at that moment a rooster began to crow.”
Jesus was right, Peter was wrong.
Now, there’s something we need remember about Jesus.  Early on in his Gospel John offers an important observation about Jesus that I think we ought to keep it in mind whenever we see Jesus interacting with another man or woman.  In John 2:24, we’re told that Jesus “…knew what people were really like.  No one needed to tell him about human nature.”
I don’t think that means Jesus was merely a good armchair psychologist; I think it means he had the capacity to size up an individual, to see their potential even if no one else did, to know their strengths and weaknesses.  Jesus, who had once predicted the day would come when Peter would be known as “The Rock”, knew the fisherman wasn’t quite ready to have his devotion face the ultimate test.
Before you and I give way to the temptation to look at Peter, shake our heads, and say, “That Peter, he should have known,” we need to recall our own experiences. 
Some of us have made bold declarations, full of resolution and determination. 
Maybe you’ve said, “Next time I have an opportunity to witness, I won’t keep quiet, I’ll speak up for Jesus even if my friends laugh at me.”
 “Next time I face that temptation—to gossip, to look at pornography, to take home a few office supplies—I’ll say, ‘No, I won’t.’”
 “Next time I’ll put my family first, before my job, before sports;  I’ll make time for my wife and kids.”
 “Next time I’m invited to join in the complaint-fest about what’s going on in the church I won’t do it; I’ll look for ways to build up my church rather than tear it down.”
Maybe you made these statements with the same degree of determination as Peter but when the next time came, you failed.  When that happened maybe you felt like Peter who, as the other gospels tell us, went outside and wept bitterly over his failure. 
Several years ago Christian balladeer Don Francisco told Peter’s story in song.  It struck a responsive chord with many who heard it.  The song begins with Peter and the other apostles hiding behind locked doors, afraid the soldiers would take them as they had taken Jesus.  Then, on what would be known as the first Easter morning, a breathless Mary came to say the tomb was empty.  Peter and John go to investigate.   They found the tomb empty.  Listen to Francisco’s description of Peter’s feelings.

Well, something strange had happened there, but, just what I didn't know.
John believed a miracle but I just turned to go.
Circumstance and speculation couldn't lift me very high,
Cause I'd seen them crucify Him, then I saw Him die.

Back inside the house again, the guilt and anguish came.
Everything I'd promised Him just added to my shame.
When, at last, it came to choices, I denied I knew His name.
And even if he was alive, it wouldn't be the same.

Like Peter, we sometimes anticipate so much from ourselves and fail so miserably.  Like Peter we wonder if our relationship with Christ will ever be the same.  We know it’s hard to have hope in the wake of failure.
This brings us to a picnic by the lake. 
Déjà Vu All Over Again

Since the Risen Jesus had already appeared to them at least once we can guess the topic of almost every conversation when the disciples got together.  Surely if someone you know, love, and admire defeats death by walking out of his tomb, you’d talk about it.
Maybe the conversation reminded Peter of his denial, maybe he realized that someone needed to make some money, maybe the cupboard was bare and they were hungry.  For whatever reason, late one evening Peter announced to the six other disciples with him, “I’m going fishing.”  And the others said they’d go with him.
Now, remember, several of these men were professional fishermen.  Still, though they fished all night, they caught nothing.  As they rowed toward the shore, they saw the faint glow of a campfire and the shadow of a man standing by the water.  The man shouted to them, “You catch anything, boys?”
No doubt with all the enthusiasm of anglers everywhere when they have to admit the creel is empty, they shout back, “No.”
Instead of saying, “Too bad” or “Better luck next time,” the Man on the shore said, “Throw your net out on the right hand side of the boat and you’ll get plenty of fish.”
Tired and hungry the disciples apparently say to themselves, “It couldn’t hurt,” and then throw out the net.  As they begin to draw it back there’s resistance, the net is full of fish.
For Peter, James, and John, at least, it was déjà vu all over again.  Years before they had had a luckless night fishing, years before a man standing on the shore told them to throw out their nets one more time, years before they had a record catch of fish.  The man whose instructions had produced that record catch was Jesus, Jesus who told them, “Follow me.  From now on you’ll be fishing for men.”
John, who had either a gift for seeing what others didn’t see or a gift for stating the obvious, said to Peter, “It’s the Lord!”
Peter, who had stripped to the waist to work, grabbed his tunic and plunged into the water.  He wanted to get to the Lord as soon as possible.  The text says, “they were only out about three hundred feet”—that seems like quite a swim to me but maybe Peter was used to it.  Anyway, once Peter and the other disciples were on shore Jesus invited them to breakfast.  My purpose is not focus on the meal itself but to remind you that the last time Peter had eaten with Christ the meal ended with Jesus’ accurate prediction of Peter’s denial.

A Private Discussion in Public

John tells us that this was the third time Jesus had appeared to a group of the disciples.  As John reports these appearances, the first confirmed the fact of the resurrection to the disciples as a whole, the second appearance allowed Jesus to deal with the questions raised by Thomas;  now, this third appearance would allow him to deal with Peter.
Both Luke and Paul tells us that the Risen Christ appeared to Peter sometime on the first Easter but the details of that experience are hidden from us.  Whatever may have transpired is never revealed.  But, if Peter was to overcome the power of his past failure and become an effective leader and coworker with the other disciples, it was necessary for this private discussion to take place in public.
Restoring Peter’s hope in the wake of his failure involved three steps.
The Element of Assessment
To understand what Jesus was doing in asking his cycle of three questions we have to understand something about the language he used.  Unlike English, Greek has three verbs that can be translated as love.  Jesus used two of them here.  [I should tell you that some commentators feel there is no significance in this but I think John is too good a wordsmith for this to be coincidence.  Besides, A.T. Robertson, one of the finest Greek scholars in the 20th century, thought it was significant and that’s a pretty good testimony.]
First, Jesus asked, “Peter, do you love me more than these men do?”  In this question Jesus used the word agape the word that signifies the highest, noblest, most selfless love.  At the same time, he invited Peter to compare his love with that of his fellow disciples. 
It’s easy, especially if we’ve faced few trials and temptations, to think that our love for Christ is greater than that of a fellow believer who may be struggling with doubt and with failure.
Peter had once said he would stand by Christ even if everyone else deserted him.  Now he knew better.  So, Peter responded using a verb for a less-intense love, “Yes, Lord, you know I have great affection for you.”
In the second question, Jesus simply asked, “Peter, do you love me?”  Again he used the word for the strongest love.  If Peter wasn’t going to claim a greater love than that of his fellow disciples, would he at least claim to have this highest love for Jesus.
No, he wouldn’t.  Again he says, “Lord, you know I have a great affection for you.”
Once again Jesus asks, “Peter, do you love me?”  At this point Jesus switches verbs, he used the word which means “to have great affection.”  He and were on the same page.
Because Peter so vividly recalled his threefold denial of Christ that third question caused him to feel deep grief for his cowardice.  Still, he answered, “Lord, you know my heart better than I know it, and you know I have a great affection for you.”
This was a painful moment for Peter.  It hurts to have our hearts laid bare but it’s sometimes important if we are to ever be healthy again.  At the same time, it was important for his fellow disciples to know that Peter had come to a realistic view of himself.  They wouldn’t have been able to work with a man they believed thought himself better than they were.  Now they knew he didn’t. 
When we fail it isn’t always necessary for Jesus to demonstrate before our closest friends that our pride is in shambles, that we have a new, healthier view of ourselves.  It was necessary in Peter’s case because his wild claims had been so public and so forceful.  Still, when we fail it is important that we come away with a more realistic view of ourselves.  We need to see that it’s dangerous to claim too much for ourselves.  In Paul’s words we need to have come to a place where we no longer thing more highly of ourselves than we ought to think.
That lesson can be learned in the secret, private places where we encounter the Lord through is Word and the Spirit.  We can demonstrate that lesson by living with a new humility.
As we look at the work Jesus was doing in bringing Peter back to a place where he could have hope in the wake of failure, we also need to look at another element in the process.
The Element of Acceptance
Jesus responded to each of Peter’s honest, heartfelt declarations of devotion with a commission:
à “Feed my lambs.”
à “Shepherd my sheep.”
à “Feed my sheep.”
Those simple phrases speak volumes.  Jesus is saying to Peter, the man who failed so miserably, “I’m accepting you where you are and I want you involved in the lives of my people.”
We can be pretty harsh in our judgment of losers like Peter.  We might have said Peter was all washed up; he can come sit in the pew, sweep the floors but not much else.  He’s a failure and we can’t ever forget that.  But as harsh as we are, that loser is often harsher.
We can all be thankful that Jesus handles failures differently.  He takes the shambles of our lives and rebuilds. 
If you have a brother, a sister, a child who’s blown it in their pilgrimage, don’t write them off as hopeless.  Chances are Jesus hasn’t.
If you’ve blown it, been a class-A failure, don’t give up on yourself.  Chances are Jesus hasn’t.
He didn’t with Peter and he’s had a lot of experience rebuilding wrecked lives since then.  The interview with Peter ends with a third element.
The Element of Affirmation
Now, it was déjà vu all over again—again.  Jesus, as he had so long ago, said to Peter, “Follow me.”  It was a powerful affirmation, it was as if Jesus had said, “Peter, I once told you I wanted you to follow me, I haven’t changed my mind.”
When Peter left his fishing business to follow Jesus he probably had big dreams of becoming a big man.  He expected Jesus to establish a kingdom, to attain power and authority; and he expected to have his share of that power.  No one would say, “Pete, mend that net” or “Peter, clean those fish.”  He would be in charge of his life.
It took time—a lot of time—and a brutal crucifixion before Peter began to see that the Kingdom Jesus was building was not one of political or economic might.  It would be a spiritual Kingdom.  And, despite his failure, Jesus still wanted him to be one of its builders.
When you and I fail we desperately need some type of affirmation that says we may still be of use to Jesus Christ in his Kingdom-building work.  He may give it to us through the word of a fellow Christian, a Scripture passage, or some unexpected turn of events in our efforts to minister for him, but he his grace he gives it to us.
As it was with Peter, that word of affirmation may take a unique, individual shape. 
Listen to what Jesus said to him:
I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, when you were young you girded yourself [put on your own belt or girdle] and you walked about wherever you pleased to go. But when you grow old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will put a girdle around you and carry you where you do not wish to go.

On the one hand, what Jesus said to Peter about his future was brutally honest.  On the other hand, it implied that when the eventual test came, Peter would remain true to Christ.
John, who was writing years after Peter’s execution at the hands of the Romans, adds this comment on what Jesus had said to Peter, “He said this to indicate by what kind of death Peter would glorify God.”
Did you hear that?  The man who failed, the man who talked big but acted small, the man who may have felt shame each time he heard a rooster crow, brought glory to God by his death.
CONCLUSION
Peter’s story is encouraging because each of us has failed to live up to our expectations for ourselves as followers of Christ.
It’s encouraging to know that even if we fail, even if we lose that sense of closeness to God, through recognition and repentance, we will hear him welcome us back to the table.
This was as story of moral and spiritual failure.  We may fail in other ways as well. We may fail in business, in a relationship, in school.  The principles at work in this story can help regenerate hope in the wake of that failure.
·       We need to take time for a serious search for the roots of our failure.
·       We need to rediscover and, perhaps, refine the vision that motivated us in the first place.
·       We need to surround ourselves with those who will affirm and encourage us.
The important lesson in this story is this:  No matter how spectacular our failure Jesus can turn things around.  Jesus can transform our lives in such a way that they bring glory to God.
If you were for some reason unable to attend a church service this Easter, I hope this sermon has reminded you of what Easter means.
If you did attend a service I hope you heard a message rooted in the Bible’s portrait of Jesus’ victory over the grave.
If your pastor talked about the significance of Easter for the Christian faith, I hope he reminded you that each Sunday is a kind of  “little Easter.”
If your pastor marshaled the evidence for the historical reality of Easter, I hope she took a moment to address the “so-what question” that event raises.
Above all, I hope your pastor reminded you that Easter is about hope.